meeeesh

2004-03-04T00:36:00.000-05:00

damn...it's been a long time

so new thoughts.....

who said the twenty-somethings is the greatest time of your life? please introduce me to all those fortunate ones who enjoyed themselves. maybe they hold some golden secrets that i can con out of them. so it's no big secret...i'm not enjoying the beginnings of my twenties.
there is just so much brewing. just when i think i'm about to maybe get a grasp on things, i get thrown a curveball and i'm all off track again. pick up the pieces and give it another try. i'm tired...i'm ready to be old. it's so easy being young and i think it's going to be great being old and all the wiser. don't get me wrong, this chaos in between can be fun at times, but how do i know i'm doing the right thing? since when did i become afraid?
eh....i know this is just a time in my life. and yes, i know i'll come out on top. but it's just so tiring. ya know?

2003-03-06T21:20:00.000-05:00

sigh...procrastination

i have really mastered the art of it, or do i just permanent senioritis? i should be blogging a lot in the next month because i have ridiculous amounts of work to do. they really piled it on for graduation. i envy those fortunate seniors who don't have class on fridays and can go out 6 nights a week and wake up at 2 every day. WHY CAN'T THAT BE ME!?!

of course this week has been hell. i come back from the bahamas and what do i get? an exam and a paper!! WHOOHOOOO

the bahamas...sigh....

i'm having the worst withdrawal and nostalgic pains daily. i miss the sun, i miss the friends, i miss the freedom, i miss the sun, i miss the sun. spring break was amazing. i got to kick back for a week and not stress about school. the ridiculous money spent was well worth it.
i sometimes wonder how different i would be had i chosen a different path in college. don't get me wrong, i've loved almost every minute of it. i met some wonderful people on break and it makes me sad that i have so limited time with them. i think i have something like 52 days of school left. WOW. i'm in shock. i'll be honest, i'm not responsible enough for the real world. don't worry, you guys know i'll be able to handle it, but i'm just not wanting to let go of this yet.

i'm not ready to stop yet, but this paper is not gonna just go away! i have so much to say lately, but i'm gonna end this. til next time!

2003-02-16T23:31:00.000-05:00

THINGS I HATE:

1. Tow truck drivers.
To all you drivers out there, how do you sleep at night? how do you live with yourself? don't get me wrong, i'm not condeming all of you. just brewers. you guys are the assholes of this campus. why do you circle around looking for cars to tow? do you think we college students have extra money to blow? and why does it cost me $95 dollars when i catch you doing your shady little deeds? AND THE ASSHOLE PATRONIZED ME!!! WTF!?! this is the same stupid towing company that wrongfully towed my car last year. the idiots towed my car thinking that it was another one that had outstanding tickets. friggin ids...i shoulda sued them.

okay....maybe this should have been called the thing i hate. since there is only one item. i'm sure i'll think of more.

THINGS I LOVE:

1. BAHAMAS IN A WEEK!!!!!!!
i don't think further explanation is needed
2. only 12 more hours til my final review of my horrendous project. at least it will be over soon.
3. procrastinating...k back to work

2003-02-05T02:27:00.000-05:00

so what up!?!

i've been wondering why i don't blog. i think it's because this is such a public forum that it freaks me out to put real stuff up. who remembers the basher? that shit is just not cool. after the basher, i really started wondering about the content of blogs. it's great to be able to share with all your friends what's up in your life. but honestly...internet stalking is a real thing. girls...don't deny it...you've all hunted down a picture before of the guy you were eyeing. i'll admit, i've done my fair share. so back to blogs...there are some that really are funny and there are some that are really profound, but i'm really not either one. and i'm not a big fan of writing either. which leads me to conclude that maybe i'm not cut out for the blogging world.

here's another theory...since it takes a lot to catch my attention and actually hold it, i don't really find myself reading blogs much. this leads me to wonder, who is actually reading me? yes, one would argue that blogging can be a personal thing, a sort of public journal but i've always believed that if you NEED to write down what you think, that thought was either never really that important to begin with or it's not part of your core beliefs. so then fine...blogging is for others to know what you're thinking....so then it's not so personal after all.

what i'm trying to accomplish here, i have no idea. i guess i'm talking in circles, trying to figure out why i never really got into this, yet i keep trying. i think it has to do with my inability to keep up with those that are not within my immediate vicinity. hmmm...maybe i should blog about that. maybe tomorrow....that way i can stretch it to two blogs this month :)

k...new new years resolution...BLOG.

2002-12-03T11:52:00.000-05:00

being a kid is great. no worries...great. i realize that i'm getting older because i'm constantly worried about getting sick. so either i'm getting older or i'm a hypocondriac. either way....no good. i don't think it helps that i think everyone here is a walking germ. that's what i hate about winter at universities. EVERYONE is sick!!

hmm..before i continue blogging, it says here that i can't publish....hmmm...i'm gonna test it out...more later

2002-12-03T00:17:00.000-05:00

ever feel kinda reckless sometimes?

someday soon i'm gonna have to be held responsible.....ahhhhhhh.....maybe that's why i'm delaying the future. i've been bitching and moaning about how much i want to get out of here, yet i'm doing nothing to get head in that direction. i need a swift kick in the butt.

anywayssss....anybody hear of any good new songs lately? i'm in the mood for new tunes...lemme know!

z

2002-11-11T02:10:00.000-05:00

hellllllloooooooo

if any one still reads this....i'm here!!

not much interesting going on though....i'm a lil worried about this "future" business...i no longer have the safety of school to fall back on...AHHHHHHH!!

k...more later...gotta sleep...nite!

2002-08-22T16:11:00.000-04:00

GREAT NEWS!!!!!

i get to move in TOMORROW!!!!! yay!!!!

my landlord bumped up move in by 5 days!!!!

2002-08-22T16:10:00.000-04:00

With the new school year soon approching, i feel as if i should make some resolutions about it:

My New School Year's Resolutions:
1) Study more- this is a MUST. I only have this last year to make up for the disappointing grades in the last 3 year.
2) Meet different people- this summer has been an interesting summer filled with random people. i will try my best to not get sucked back into the same scenes when everyone gets back. expand, broaden, and explore.
3) Organization- i gotta get it together before graduation. it's coming. fast.
4) Family- since i plan on moving out of michigan after graduation, i should fully take advantage of having my family close to me.
5) Body, Mind and Soul- yeah i know...cheesy. but seriously, the benefits of health; mind, body, and soul, have been enumerous this summer. i will not let the pressures and stresses of school take this away.
6) Live it up- i guess this is pretty self explanatory. one year left til responsibility, i better have fun.

k i think that's it for now...i'll update when i think of more :)

2002-08-20T14:34:00.000-04:00

which type are you?

2002-08-20T10:39:00.000-04:00

i'm at work...miserable

my allergies are driving me nutz...my eyes itch and tear while i sneeze like 3 times a minute. i don't think it helps that they're cutting the lawn outside...TERRIBLE...i want to go home.

i've been thinking a lot about what happens after this school year. honestly, i'm scared. i no longer have the safety of school to fall back on UNLESS i go to grad school. but is that a decision i'm ready to make right now? ok if not, then what? work? where? in what? the problem is that right now i have no direction. i don't know what i actually want to do BUT i have a good idea about the things that i don't want to do. so that leaves me NOWHERE. so if anyone has any insight to the solution to my problem, pleeeease let me know!

2002-08-20T01:44:00.000-04:00

HELLO BLOGGING COMMUNITY!!!

i have decided to come back!

i was on innerlife today looking for the link to the designer michael lau and i noticed a blog on the page about blogs. the hyperwest guru checked up on his links and commented on the fact that i NEVER blog, yet i average 15 hits per day.

I'M SO FLATTERED!!

so for all of you out there checking my site...THANKS...and i'm gonna do my best from now on to give you something to read.

2002-06-30T20:26:00.000-04:00

NUMEROLOGY

For Name: Michelle Min-Ann Chien

Your Inner or Soul's Urge: This is spiritual and emotional expression more than physical. It is your heart-felt desires, your incentive, how you look at life. Here are your areas of personal satisfaction.

Deep down, you desire the best life has to offer. This includes living your inner life in peace and silence. You have a keen sense of perfection and like to meditate and analyze, dissect, examine, and consider things from every angle. And you can definitely do without poverty, the transitory, and the noise and confusion of the business world.
You love huge libraries, old and well-maintained gardens, classic pictures, and time mellowed furniture. You are intellectual, scientific, philosophical, deeply intuitive, and a well of secrecy. You are sought after for your wisdom. Probably you are somewhat shy and deeply emotional, but with a horror of showing it.
For more complete personal understanding of life, work on expressing your emotions, trusting your feelings, less avoidance, and being sympathetic and understanding with people. You possess a tremendous inner wisdom.

Your Personality: This is physical expression more than spiritual or emotional; your outer self, the way you express when meeting others. It may or may not be the real you.

Neat and clean; that's your usual appearance. With a pleasing personality and gentle manner. You appear cooperative, diplomatic, and tactful. And you appear to adapt easily to varied circumstances and people from diverse backgrounds.
When you don't get your way, you can become cunning and scheming, which may give a contrived or hypocritical appearance.
You attract people who want to be of assistance. You can be subtle and work behind the scenes to accomplish desired objectives, being successful more through diplomacy than by coercion.
Try to wear soft, flowing, and neat clothing rather than loud and showy or plain and colorless.

Your Quiescent Self: Stripping away all outside influences, aspirations, ambitions, "shoulds", and "shouldn'ts" — this is you when you are alone; just you and your dreams.

You are a Spiritual Leader, able to guide many along the road of your Truth. Your words are inspired. Your eyes glow with the unshakable divinity of your spirituality. You sense there can be glory in martyrdom, provided it inspires others to The Way.
Your thoughts and pleasure are you as an effective leader to the glory of goodness and all people you meet are or become part of your spiritual family.

Your Destiny or Ultimate Goal: This is your desired lifetime accomplishment. It is a key to a useful and happy life, and to feeling fulfillment during your latter days.

Your destiny is service to mankind and representing all that is fine, true, and generous. This is easier with tolerance, compassion, and understanding. You have tremendous power to warm the hearts of humanity and to stimulate the perception of beauty.
You have an eye for beauty and perfection and are inspirational, kind, understanding, generous, an inspired artist, intuitive, and psychic. You give freely of your emotions, your skill, and your leadership purely for the benefit of mankind. You have the ability to use words effectively and artistically, both written and verbal.
You are artistic, beautiful, strong, courteous, kind, impulsive, emotional, harmonious, and have an impressive personality.

For Birth Date: October 26, 1981

Your Life's Path: Here are clues to what fate has in store for you. It indicates the type of encounters, events, and opportunities you are likely to experience along your physical life path.

Your path is along the lines of expressing self-reliance, individuality, and the proper expression of will.
You may have been born into a family with domineering, interfering, or unyielding parents. Be that as it may, there probably was tension and conflict of will during your growing up years.
Your life is strewn with challenges and opportunities to express your will, your independence, and your initiative.
You are a leader, strongly individualized, and demand the right to think and act according to your own ideas and convictions. Originality, invention, will power, and courage are native to you. You have keen perception and good concentration.
Be wary of any tendency to start a project, then becoming bored with it and starting a new project before completing the first. Develop your body, mind, and spirit to the highest point of efficiency. Refuse limitations. Cooperate without losing your individuality.
You seem to complete tasks better when left alone. Promotion to positions of leadership come easier to you than to some people, especially if you make yourself invaluable wherever you find yourself. Ambition is a significant driving force.

For Year: 2002

This is a practical year; no long leisurely periods for dreaming, personal indulgence, or careless living. It is a time to build the firm and secure foundation upon which your future depends, using practical values and steady application. It is also the time to work out the details of that project you've been thinking about. Read the fine print of all transactions.
This is the year to find where you stand in life, and to be practical about it -- to pay attention to details.
This year demands a lot of work, not only to improve the present but also to build practical foundations for the future. Your diligence brings commensurate rewards. With good sense, you can meet all requirements and experience satisfactory gain.
Your gatherings, meetings, parties, and trips are mostly related to work or business.
As part of the practical focus of this year, attend to health matters.

For Year: 2003

This is a year of change for you, a year to get out of the rut. Your opportunities are found outside ordinary routine. New opportunities and new conditions are manifesting (some may appear unexpectedly) -- new relationships, new ideas, new contacts, new enterprises, new plans -- more freedom, more variety, more travel-- broader fields of interest and activity.
It is a year of new experiences -- change, growth, fun, freedom. You feel an inner push to go do something, anything, so long as it's a new experience. You notice more opportunities to travel. It is time to take advantage of the prevailing atmosphere of change and variety to learn something new. The year adds new life and color to your undertakings.
The changes can be thrilling and inspiring. Now is the time to take advantage of the enhanced sense of freedom you feel and create new outlets for your genius. It is also a time to let older people and children inspire you.
If you have a business, you may wish to advertise more than usual, possibly presenting your business with a new, even unique, angle.

2002-06-30T19:14:00.000-04:00

i am back!!

people keep asking...where have you been? well, my life is fairly slow and dull so i've felt as if i've had nothing to write about. BUT TODAY...i was messing around on the net and decided to get my WU NAME

my reults: Lazy-Assed Destroyer

THE CLAN KNOWS ME WELL!!!!

2002-05-25T02:27:00.000-04:00

i'm still alive...just nothing really interesting to write about...

saw insomnia tonight...pretty good...not what i expected...but good

that's it...exciting life huh?

2002-05-13T22:36:00.000-04:00

What kind ofcarare you?

2002-04-21T08:08:00.000-04:00

MICHIGAN WEATHER is soooo weird...i had to blog about it.

it's been 70-80 degrees this past week...BEAUTIFUL WEATHER!

it's 8 in the morning and i just got home from the dreaded north campus. i thought i heard it raining outside, while in studio, so i was prepared to get my naked toes wet. i step outside to find it HAILING!!! there weren't any huge ice chunks but it was definitely hailing. RIDICULOUS.

it was so frikin cold my teeth actually chattered. come to think of it, they could have been chattering cuz i seem to have lost muscle control due to lack of sleep. almost done though...can't wait. k time for my nap. later

2002-04-12T17:16:00.000-04:00

school is slowly killing me...

i don't really know how much more i can take...i just want this semester to be done.

i'm so behind in work that it has just become this huge cloud of frustration and anxiety hanging over my head

ONE MORE WEEK

2002-04-10T20:18:00.000-04:00

pet peeve:

when people pass gas in large, condensed, hot, crowded public areas.

it's so gross

2002-04-04T02:05:00.000-05:00

great way to procrastinate!!

check out the penquins :)

2002-04-03T23:07:00.000-05:00

WHAT A FUN WEEK!!!

i haven't done any work since last tues...so now i have a 12 page term paper to write

WHOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO

i'm so screwed...

oh well...this week was fun...good to see everyone...miss you guys already

2002-03-27T21:35:00.000-05:00

YAY!!!!

i'm so excited...the start of EVERYONE has started!!!

hongshin came in yesterday...

and then...victor, leslie, and amit just got in...

and then lynn, anna, eric, connie, chrissy, angie? tonight

then jon tomorrow

then george and james on fri

oh my goodness...this is gonna be a crazy weekend :)

2002-03-25T17:47:00.000-05:00

to all my friends coming in from cali and miami...

GET READY...IT'S COLD!!!!!

it's almost april and it snowed today. it doesn't snow all winter but NOW that it's spring...it might as well snow

BLAH

2002-03-25T03:49:00.000-05:00

smarterchild horoscope for the day....

Take your time and get to know him or her all over again.

hmmmm.....i wonder who "him or her" is

if you feel that you deserve a second chance from me...please let me know

2002-03-25T03:36:00.000-05:00

HAHAHAHA

meshell1026: take the color quiz i just posted
Jeru201: k..
Jeru201: i can't decide on a color

2002-03-25T03:14:00.000-05:00

take the color test

my results:

You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to 'All things bright and beautiful'. This personifies a caring person, a person who 'needs' and indeed 'needs to be needed'.

You are full of stress at this time. It would seem that you are having more than your fair share of trials and tribulations and you are looking for a way out. You are not quite sure which way to go but the advice is - 'Stop trying so hard'.

Everything seems to have gone wrong and the situation at this time is such that you are not quite sure which way to turn. So it would appear that you are 'holding back', re-consolidating your position and relinquishing all fun and games for the time being.

You are presently experiencing excessive stress as a result of self-restraint. You act and think differently from the common herd and you want to be liked and admired for yourself and to associate with people who feel and act as you do. Because of this need to be self-reliant and to break away from mediocrity, you are finding this situation most uncomfortable and you are experiencing considerable anxiety - perhaps even more than you feel the capacity to cope with. You need to find a 'soul mate', someone whose standards are as high as your own - but where? Keep on searching... The situation is uncomfortable and you would like to break away from it, but you refuse to compromise with your opinions. You are unable to resolve the situation because you are continually postponing the making of necessary decisions. You are stubborn but this is no deterrent to a happy life, so why drop your standards. Think positively, everything will work out. It has worked out successfully for you in the past and it will again in the future.

The tensions and stresses that you have experienced of late have been the result of trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond your capabilities. You feel completely inadequate to cope with the situation and you would like nothing better to escape from it all and to be able to relax in a problem and pressure free environment where you can do your thing.
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so some of it is quite close to the truth...but how much of this pertains to you too? i feel like most of these quizes give you universal answers so that no matter how you answer the test...something in their analysis of you will speak some truth. BUT THEY ARE FUN...SO DO IT!

2002-03-23T17:29:00.000-05:00

i have the biggest crush on jordan catalano

2002-03-23T13:58:00.000-05:00

i DETEST ignorant drunk people

i THOUGHT i went to a well--accredited liberal arts college with INTELLIGENT educated people

if i EVER get racially harrassed again...can o WHUP ASS!!

people can be so wack...

2002-03-21T01:05:00.000-05:00

okay...to explain the story...

i found it on a friend's AIM profile and found it to be an interesting illustration as to how i view things...
i don't mean it to be morbid...

so in these past few months i've done a lot of thinking...and it occured to me that no one really ever gets blamed for things they do to me. at first, it really bothered me...am i too lenient? do i really not care all that much about anything at all? do people take advantage of this? blah blah..

but then i realized...it's better this way. why waste my time blaming others? yeah, in the wise words of forrest gump, shit happens...but what is more important is how you respond to it and cope with it...cuz in the long run, others will cease to matter and the one person who will always be with you is YOU...so if shit happens and you cry, cry ONLY because YOU let it happen. and if random shit happens and you cry, cry ONLY because YOU won't let it go and it still bothers you. NEVER cry simply because shit happens.

2002-03-20T16:52:00.000-05:00

Perhaps you've heard the story of the little bird. He had his
wing over his eye and he was crying. The owl said to the
bird, "You are crying." "Yes," said the little bird, and he
pulled his wing away from his eye. "Oh, I see," said the owl.
"You're crying because the big bird pecked out your eye." And
the little bird said, "No, I'm not crying because the big bird
pecked out my eye. I'm crying because I let him."

2002-03-20T03:51:00.000-05:00

YO!!

do people read my blogger page? i'm beginning to wonder...

so if you do...COMMENT

2002-03-20T03:50:00.000-05:00

sometimes my STUPIDITY amazes me

it's almost 4 in the morning and i just spent the last 7 hours drilling holes into plastic.

it didn't occur to me til NOW that i should have just sat down, taken down the measurements, drawn them in autocad, take the drawings tomorrrow morning down to the woodshop and get the LASER CUTTER to cut the holes.

that process would have taken me...hmmm......oh i'd say at most 2 HOURS!!

so in that wasted 5 hours i could have planned out my next phase of my project, written out my concept statement, and avoided getting crapped on by my professor tomorrow...all of which i NOW have to do at 4 IN THE MORNING!!!

not to mention....my holes are crappy cuz the plastic chips really easily...and the laser cutter would have made PERFECT holes.

i am such a dork

2002-03-19T02:47:00.000-05:00

i feel like i'm on the slow and going nowhere track in life right now...

it's ridiculous...my productivity level is painfully slow...and for once in my life...i'm actually putting in the time

2002-03-19T02:44:00.000-05:00

sleep sleep sleep

need it
want it
miss it

2002-03-08T01:24:00.000-05:00

so my friend from columbia sent me this page...check it out...HILARIOUS!!!

scott's plan

scott...if you ever happen to cross this page...you speak the truth!

2002-03-01T11:26:00.000-05:00

i'm all over the east coast this break! i'm in NYC now with leslie and karina and we're gonna go SHOPPING!!!!!

it's gonna be NUTS!! we met up with je-yi bernard, jimmy, gary, jen lu, and some of their friends last night. we went to this shabu shabu place in flushing. YUMMMM!!! good food!! i had shaved ice afterwards too!! i felt like i was in taiwan all over again!!

so this world really is a crazy small place....on my way to shabu shabu...i heard someone call out my name...it was loreen and lucy!! they're friends from umich. we also ran into b chiang on the streets too. so that was odd but believable...what was really weird was running into james choi at the sigma chi house at MIT. now that was completely random!!! we were both like...what the? pretty funny!!

boston was tons of fun...it's always really great when i get to see loveboat friends....

ahh...loveboat...the friendships made there are of another world...if you stop and think about it...i was only with these people for 5 weeks...so that's probably the shortest of all friendships BUT my loveboat friends feel like home friends. it's as if they know all about me and have known me all my life and when we see each other it's always fun.

my last night there, carolyn (friend from troy) took me around boston. i got to see the brownstones, newberry st. and north end. we kinda got lost in north end looking for italian pasteries, but now i know my way around...and if you ever want to get some amazing canolies...lemme know...i'll take ya!

2002-02-27T01:19:00.000-05:00

SPRING BREAK!!!!

i'm now in boston...
is it's been a confusing past few days...my plans changed at least 4 times on sat...so this is what ended up happening...

originally i was supposed to go to boston first...but i ended up in syracuse with my family and i decided to go to cornell to visit ppl first...i got to see a ton of loveboaters, some friends from home, and i got to met a bunch of cool people too!! i got there sat night and my friends jessica and jason took me to this fun lil oyster bar to eat. i got to meet jason's new girlfriend, diana, (COOL GIRL!!) and his friend todd. good food, good drinks. then we went to get BOBA!!!! YUMMMM!!!! the rest of my cornell loveboaters, eric and john, met us there...fun lil reunion!!

we all went out to brunch the next day...chilled in the afternoon... and then went to this indian reservation casino at night...it was my first time actually gambling..and i won money!! beginners luck :)

mon was my last day at cornell...i got to chill with my friend ben from home...cornell has good dorm food!! lucky!! we tried to go to the art museum but it was closed :( i got to walk around it though...it was designed by i.m. pei so it was fun for me to see. then we all went out to dinner and then chilled with a movie.

cornell was really nice....good college atmosphere...it's kinda isolated so i think i would go stir-crazy...but it's definitely a beautiful campus. it's weird meeting people at other schools and seeing how different they are from umich students. i kinda came a bad time cuz everyone had exams, but it seems like they are much more school oriented. i'm not really sure how they were different....but i definitely got a very different vibe from the peeps at cornell...like a different focus in life. i had a great time though and everyone was super nice...and i was pretty sad when it was time to go.

but now i'm in boston with wendy, ben, and dennis!!!!! we had the BEST dinner tonight...we went to this italian place and had this garlic shrimp pizza...YUMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!

i love traveling....GREAT PEOPLE...GREAT FOOD!!!!!

k...i'm gonna bounce but i'll catch you guys up on the rest of my travels later...gnite!!!

2002-02-23T02:03:00.000-05:00

AHHHH!!!!!!

ever heard of smarterchild? it's an im buddy that gives you the forecast, movie listings, news...all that good stuff. great buddy! anyways...he also gives you your horoscope...and i'm convinced...he's posessed!!!!

my horoscope....

Your health may suffer if you've been neglecting yourself. Don't let minor ailments turn into major problems. Your reluctance to take a break will only make matters worse.

how the heck does he know!!! :)
i guess i'll just have to take my break and have fun in boston!!

2002-02-23T01:46:00.000-05:00

wassuuuppppp

i'm at home in troy now...i'm going to boston in about 4 hrs yet i still have about 5 hrs worth of laundry to do...hmmm...how am i gonna make this work?

i'm really excited to go somewhere other than michigan and see friends in other places...hopefully i'll be able to hit up boston, NYC, and cornell all in one trip...

even though i just finished a huge project, i still have this huge cloud of stress hanging over me...i feel like all my time in the past week or two has been spent on studio and now i'm laggin in my other classes. so even though i'm really excited for vacation, a part of me wants to stay here and just get stuff done. it's past time for my portfolio and resume to get cleaned up....argh...that's the beauty of architecture...you're stinking NEVER done...there's always something else....and NO BREAKS EVER!!

oh well...i chose it...

mmmmmm mango peach applesauce...my favorite...you should really try some!

2002-02-22T20:54:00.000-05:00

DELIRIUM IS FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i've had about 5- 6 hrs of sleep TOTAL in the past 2 nights...3 nights?? i dunno...i've lost count...i can't even type straight...i'm so retarded right now....full retardation as we speak...i've had the most wack trippy thoughts these past few days...

i think one of the funniest things ever is how i think i'm an intelligent and reasoning (if you could see what i just typed, you would understanding my lack of functioning right now...r-e-a-s-o-n-i-n-g just took me about 16.5 times to get it right) being first thing when i get up...on normal mornings i try to to wake up at 8 and do work before my 10:30 class...somehow i make the "rational" decision that i really don't need to and that it's ok for me to sleep more...so basically i proceed to snooze for 2 hrs.

so this morning....i came home at 8:30 for an hour nap before my review...when my roommate grace tried to wake me up, i was at my height of ridiculousness...i
FULLY believed that time was somehow like a triangle? (fits with my project) and that even though i was sleeping, time wasn't being wasted...i'm not really sure how to explain it cuz no matter what, it doesn't make sense...so yeah...time was the peak of a triangle (kinda like a mountain) and i was "climbing" it from both sides...so i guess it didn't matter if i slept on one side, i'd reach it from the other....RETARDED!!! i know :)

so anyways...project went well...and now i'm on SPRING BREAK!!!! WHOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2002-02-20T22:46:00.000-05:00

AHHHHHH!!!!!

we are approaching the 24 hr mark to project deadline...it is intense...i would give anything to be impermanently disabled right now...like a broken arm for a week...or maybe some broken fingers...

okay...see ya guys and sunlight...ON FRIDAY! til then...it's hell...

2002-02-05T17:39:00.000-05:00

i'm sitting here in my living room...CRYING!!

no...don't worry...nothings wrong....my roommate is like 15 feet away cutting onions...and my eyes are THAT sensitive!

and i'm super tired today...i'm thinking i'm either anemic or i'm narcoleptic...i'm NOT exaggerating...it's that bad...i've fallen asleep standing up before!! and that's on a full nights sleep too!! i think sometimes that i get really really bored...and so there's nothing better for me to do but sleep. but that was not the case today...i really wanted to learn about stuff today in lecture...my history class is getting really interesting...but i just couldn't make it through it. maybe i should see a doc about this...it's really starting to hinder my studies.

so i really have to get used to this blogging thing....a lot has happened lately but i'm just not used to doing this yet...so i'll try to recap...

hmmm...this weekend was interesting...fri night we took my friend jerry out for his birthday dinner...yummy food, fun ppl :)
sat morning i woke up LATE for huaren rehersal (BAD MICHELLE) and then spent the rest of the afternoon at the mall looking for costumes and getting ready for lunar (our chinese new year celebration).

LUNAR~
i was slightly hesitant about going but then my friend/neighbor al set everything up...so i couldn't not go...
i went with my friend james and the entire table of 10 consisted of good friends....good friends = good times...
and good times we had...the food was ok, the drinks were expensive, but the ppl were fun...so overall...i had a great time.

sun was lazy day...i didn't get up til 3...then watched to superbowl...GO BRADY!! then had a really productive dance practice. BUT i didn't do any work all weekend and then proceeded to get reprimanded on mon morning. my studio prof really really made me feel like crap. she had every right too...i didn't do any work. but it makes me wonder sometimes if architecture really is for me. when i'm doing stuff that i really am curious about...i'm pretty diligent and my work comes out well. she seems to like what i do and thinks i'm "bright"...but i'm just not ready to dedicate 150% of my life to arch school...i wouldn't be me then. but that's what this school needs...150%. i really think my prof is crazy intelligent so i'm always wanting to impress her...but what happens is that i end up sitting for hrs trying to think of the right way to tackle a project...and then ending up with good stuff....but stuff that looks like it took the minimum amount of time. thurs night...i was on the verge of a panic attack cuz i couldn't think of anything...and i'm kinda in mortal fear of her and of disappointing her...so i started getting short of breath, heart palpitations and everything...it was kinda scary! but yeah...i got a mild bitching on mon so now i have to do a ton of work for tomorrow....wish me luck!

k i'm gonna eat dinner...
yummmmmm....enchiladas!!

2002-01-27T22:09:00.000-05:00

OH NO!!!!!

i just wrote a REALLY REALLY long blogger and somehow i lost it. i'm not really sure how yet...but i'm pretty sure i can blame that one on my own stupidity! it seems like i have been quite slow today...i seem to be unable to come up with any ideas for my assignment for tomorrow. i'm at the architecture school now and i've been sitting here unable to think of anything...

so to sum it all up....FRUSTRATION!

2002-01-19T22:41:00.000-05:00

i'm BORED!!
it's sat night....i have nothing to do...
well maybe that's a lie...i could go to halogen...some asian gathering...but i really am not feeling it tonight...
i kinda want to go to the lambda party....hmmm....lemme think....am i feeling that tonight....hmmms...maybe

wow...i'm insightful tonight...

oh, here's something i have been pondering about....so i'll ask you...
let's say you fall in love with someone and things are getting serious...and then he/she says...hon, i have to tell you something (ya know...in that uh oh tone)...i'm in the secret service, or the FBI, or the CIA....basically a job where he/she is in danger almost all the time....so what do you do? do you stay with the person, even though you know you could potentially lose them?
okay so comment...once i figure out how to put the comment section up :)

wow...lame blogger...

2002-01-17T00:48:00.000-05:00

HELLLLOOOOO!!!!!

i have finally entered into the realm of blogging. WOW! and now that i am finally here, i feel as if i have nothing to say. i feel like i should start off my blogging life with some very profound statements...but none are coming to me. ah well...you get to hear about my day-to-day from now on...so get excited!!

today was not so hot of a day. for starters, this has been a hell of a horrible week. i received a devastating blow to my system this past weekend. it's been a long time since i've been so hurt before. my faith in friendship has definitely been challenged these past few days and i'm afraid that my ability to trust and invest in people will be lost. BUT i've dealt and hopefully my optimistic nature will take over. it still hurts a lot but i think i'll be ok. SO anyways, to top it all off...i got in a car accident today. it was really nasty out cuz it just started to snow like crazy and i was on my way home from the auto show in detroit (new fav car...TT roadster). somehow i lost sight of the road on I-94 and the next thing i knew, we were spinning and slidding all over the place. luckily, my car went away from the expressway and into the median without hurting anyone else. i did take out a post though and put a large dent in the side of my car. i think the scariest part though had to be when my car almost spun on to the other side of the median...into oncoming traffic! scary scary! thank you God for stopping the car.

okay...what a bad way to start off blogging. besides all the yuck i just wrote about, things are going well for me in school. i'm really excited about this semester...which is weird....since when did school excite me? my new studio professor is amazingly intelligent and she's setting the bar quite high for us. i don't mind though...i think she's pushing our analytical processes and expanding our thinking in ways that i was not challenged last semester. and finally after a long period of rest...i can feel my brain active again. i think 2001 was more a doing than a thinking year. it's ok, everyone needs a break. but now i feel like i'm back again. :)

okie dokie...i gotta sleep...hello everybody...i hope you guys are all doing well...since most of the blogging community (that i know) consists of people that are not here with me (why do you people have to graduate)...i miss you guys and hope to see you soon. luv ya all...gnite!